A Reverse Bucket List.

A bucket list is a great way to make goals and dreams you wish to do before you “kick the bucket.” These usually include travelling somewhere out of Europe (tick), skinny dipping (tick), or simply learning to drive (half tick). But what about a list of everything you have done. Incoming the reverse bucket list!

When everything feels a bit crap it’s important to have a sense of achievement somewhere in your thoughts, even if it’s hidden, very well. To be able to say okay, I don’t feel good right now but look at everything I have accomplished. I’m sure everyone has done something they can feel proud of. Right?

I’m going to pick 10 of my proudest/most memorable moments (so far). These are the things I like to look at when I feel a bit glum.

  • I got onto a Nursing degree and have passed everything so far. In all honesty I didn’t think I would get onto my nursing degree. I did not have the grades from Highschool. Thankfully my dad and a job in a care home helped me get a place.
  • I can say I am good at my job with confidence. As a care assistant it can be extremely tough but extremely rewarding.
  • I started a blog. Something I never ever thought I would do, but here I am!
  • I started to take control of my depression with therapy and medication. There was part of me that felt I could just trudge along and not bother doing anything. I am so glad last year I decided enough was enough. It’s still an on-going process but I am so pleased with everything I have learnt about myself so far.
  • Ate at a Michelin star restaurant. Blue Hill in New York to be exact. I plan on making this a holiday tradition….
  •  Created long lasting and wonderful friendships. I can’t express enough how much my friends mean to me.
  • Moved in, and still live successfully, with a partner. Congrats to us!
  • Gotten a tattoo (or five). They all have meaning which makes them special to me.
  • Started baking again. How could I not put in something baking related?! But seriously, I am so happy I started my hobby back up, it’s nice to be “known” for something.
  • I can confidently sit in a café on my own reading a book and not feel like everyone is staring at me. I know. This is silly. But for years I have wanted to be “that person” who can enjoy a coffee and a book in public, alone. I used to feel very self conscious and now, I don’t.

I have come to the conclusion that bad weather does not bring along baking inspiration. With Edinburgh on shut down last week I spend my days off under 100 blankets and a hot water bottle watching crap telly. Hoping that I wouldn’t run out of milk so I could avoid the two minute walk to Tesco. But I have spent a lot of time on Instagram screenshotting inspiration and a bake will be on it’s way soon!

I have also come to the conclusion that writing a 7,500 word essay for uni means doing any other form of writing, such as a blog, feels like a chore. Luckily, I don’t have to use references in creative writing (Maya Hurding, 2018).

P.S I hope everyone is watching Celebrity Bake Off!



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